Here We Go Again

Matt is being grumpy and uncommunicative again. I know it's because I haven't seen him in a while but this is becoming a bit of a pattern.

It's ridiculous trying to talk to him when he's like this. He either grunts one word answers or takes issue with anything I say. For example, we were talking about Michael Jackson the other day, and I said I thought there had been a bit too much news coverage although it was probably warranted as he was known across the generations. I grew up with his music and my kids have always thought he was great and my mother loved his early stuff but went off him when he went "strange". In response, he said he never rated him and in fact, he was glad that the weirdo was dead and gone.

I was shocked by that, I have to admit. I said it wasn't a very nice thing to say and he sulkily said that it was his opinion and he didn't care what I thought. I realised then that there was no point continuing the conversation. We haven't spoken much since, apart from when he called to ask me to go round and I said I couldn't. That led to an abrupt end of the conversation!

It's very tiring and I just don't have the energy to plead with him to be nice or let him know that I'm affected by his behaviour, which I'm trying hard not to be.

I don't want to be made to feel guilty by him when I'm managing that emotion very well on my own. Anyway, I'm irritated now. I know I always say it but I do want to finish this. I'll see how it goes over the next few days.

In a way, I hope he carries on like this so that I can end it easily once and for all.