Thursday, 2 July 2009

Here We Go Again

Matt is being grumpy and uncommunicative again. I know it's because I haven't seen him in a while but this is becoming a bit of a pattern.

It's ridiculous trying to talk to him when he's like this. He either grunts one word answers or takes issue with anything I say. For example, we were talking about Michael Jackson the other day, and I said I thought there had been a bit too much news coverage although it was probably warranted as he was known across the generations. I grew up with his music and my kids have always thought he was great and my mother loved his early stuff but went off him when he went "strange". In response, he said he never rated him and in fact, he was glad that the weirdo was dead and gone.

I was shocked by that, I have to admit. I said it wasn't a very nice thing to say and he sulkily said that it was his opinion and he didn't care what I thought. I realised then that there was no point continuing the conversation. We haven't spoken much since, apart from when he called to ask me to go round and I said I couldn't. That led to an abrupt end of the conversation!

It's very tiring and I just don't have the energy to plead with him to be nice or let him know that I'm affected by his behaviour, which I'm trying hard not to be.

I don't want to be made to feel guilty by him when I'm managing that emotion very well on my own. Anyway, I'm irritated now. I know I always say it but I do want to finish this. I'll see how it goes over the next few days.

In a way, I hope he carries on like this so that I can end it easily once and for all.


  1. I haven't really got the guts of this situation, but it really does sound like you know that you'd be better off without it! Courage, madam! :-) And you're welcome to seek refuge over at mine....

  2. This does sound difficult. Are you really going to be able to end it easily once and for all?

  3. You've surely heard the old advice to the effect of : probably not a good idea to stay in a relationship with someone you can't have a really good conversation with... because the rest of it, you can find just about anywhere...

    That's what I like about blogging, it's all about the conversation...

    Personally, I didn't care much for the Michael Jackson phenomenon, the music wasn't up my alley, and the whole story just got stranger and stranger as time went by... I'm more an acoustic-guitar-folk-music-Grateful-Dead-rock-with-a-heart kind of guy... One artist I just found out about who strikes me as really excellent is Grace Potter. For this old child of the sixties... gotta remember to add her to my profile list of musicians I love... Michael Jackson seems to me like someone who had too much too fast as a kid even, and dealt with it strangely as years went on, living a fantasy in Neverland, and not doing much artistically in the later years. Too much glitter for me. But I'll hand it too him, he sure could dance !!! Thanks for stopping by !

  4. to cut a relationship is easy... but to maintain u need to compramise......and u hv to be happy with that...... we cannot change the ppl but we can change ourself.........