I'm watching the Michael Jackson memorial and sitting here blubbing away.
Not because I was a great fan and not because I'm moved by the service but because Jermaine Jackson just sang Smile and given how I have felt since I sent that email to Matt, it seemed as if he was singing it just for me:
Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through for you
Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying?
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile.
I'll smile again tomorrow but tonight, I just want to keep on crying.